It's Never Easy

Son17 was in a serious bike wreck today and while he will recover I once again dance with my own demons about losing another child and my connection to each of my children.

 Like an invisible thread that ties each of them to me at the same time while  I teach them all the skills they need so that they may soar on their own, the biggest of ironies  

It's the thinnest of threads that snags me from my sleep in flash and sits me bolt upright in bed at almost the exact second my child laid in agony, crying out, tangled in his bike, bleeding but thankfully protected by his helmet.
 All while callous drivers absorbed in their own world passed him by. Not one person stopped.

I will be damned if I am going to lose another child and every part of me wants to wrap them all up and never let them leave my side and yet I must let them try, stretch, and  encounter danger in order for them to grow and become strong.  I do it, but it does not mean it's easy


Jodie said...

I would have stopped. Because it would have been the right thing to do. Why don't more people do the right thing any more? As a mother, I understand.

SewCalGal said...

Hugs, big hugs. I would have stopped. Shame on those drivers that didn't take time to stop.


Anonymous said...

My heart dropped reading that. Peace honey, peace.

Mimi said...

My heart hurts for you. I know that it hurts so badly to see your child hurt. I will be thinking of you and Son17. Best wishes for fast and complete recovery. I hope Son13 is doing well also. Hugs to you all.

fairyrocks said...

A mothers love is the strongest love.
Thinking of you both.