As I have mentioned before I am spending more time on myself and my wardrobe this fall in an effort to regain my sexy that seems to keep trying to scamper off when I turn my back on it for even a little bit. So in order to make things easier I have been culling the ugly, ill fitting and unflattering out of my wardrobe so that only the best remains, leaving me with only good options when I drag myself up in the morning and walk into the closet to get dressed.
As I try on things and wear them I reflect on how they make me feel. Even if something fits well and is comfortable I have found that certain items give off a certain vibe that makes me feel less than confident and sexy, they makes me feel "cute". Cute, like fuzzy kittens and hello kitty. Cute like an 8 year old girl with a basket of puppies. I have figured out that I don't feel good when I am "cute".
Perhaps I have crested the age wave that can wear cute as a look and pull it off, I don't know but what I do know is that I feel about as powerful as a limp dish cloth when I wear certain items. Case in point- shoes, in fact the "cutest" shoe of all.. yes.. the Mary Jane.
|Perfect for little girls, possibly doubtful for grown women.|
Don't get me wrong, I LOVE MJ's with all my heart. On little girls they break my heart every time. On teen girls they look fresh but on myself.. well they make me feel sweet and cute and powerless and slightly asexual. I am closing in on 44 years old .. and I am not sweet and cute. I am a lot of things - hot, sexy, maturing, powerful,curvy and dynamic but not cute.
It took me a while to figure it out and it dawned on me the day I put on a sweater dress and tights and then slipped into a pair of brown suede MJ's that sat on the floor of my closet.. I looked like a school girl, a cute overage school girl .. it felt wrong. I took them off and pulled on some boots.. much better. In fact by just pulling on the boots my posture changed, how I felt shifted.. it was weird and a VERY powerful lesson.
A few days later I got the chance to be out and try on some shoes just for fun so played with the idea trying on what was a more childish style and then something more mature/sexy/ industrial.. anything other than cute. It proved true each and every time, I was swayed by my shoes.. oh what a footwear sheep I am!
After that I pulled a lot of pairs of Mary Jane's to compare.. I pulled these which are very similar to some Clarks I own..
Yep.. I felt like a dud in the them. They were indeed comfortable but left me feeling rather "meh" in the power, sexy and confidence department. .. and so it went.. pair after pair with some being a bit better but most not rating more than couple seconds on my feet until they were returned to their box.
I did have more success with this style.. a bit of a heel, some retro vibe but still a technical MJ. They put some pep in my step and some swing in my hip and were amazingly comfortable but are indeed a bit of a heel so while it is a height I can wear daily they are not right for trip to the park with the kids. Guess that is where I will wear my boots!
So, you might now think I am crazy.. or not... do yo have clothes that are perfectly decent but bring up weird stuff for you.. so much so that you really can't wear them and feel good... tell me.. make me feel less weird!